Recently, I got very angry with my Mother and felt quite downcast, discouraged and tired. I realize that I am not responsible for anyone but myself in that sense, but, like every human being at some point in their existence, I had a great lapse in judgment, and now I am paying the consequences in my soul, spirit And be. . Sure, we all love “top of the mountain,” winning and having the top spire of God’s Cathedral light up for us. In fact, though, I realize that all temporary failure is part of the training to make victory permanent. Now, I do not excuse my behavior or the reality created by myself in any way. However, I validate it as part of the reality that makes me myself. Sure, I could just completely “shrug my shoulders” and just acknowledge the winner, “top of the mountain” and all that cool stuff, and forget about the climb that got me to those wonderful places. But then, if one does not remember or recognize the process, how can progress really happen but those two dreaded words: Fool yourself.
I recognize reality, and all of it, with its good, bad and bad moments, but most importantly: I realize that to do what you want, you must first do what you need: good, bad, ugly. pretty and all.
I was giving myself a “my fault” or “mea culpa” review and I have decided to move on make my slips, not let them be falls, and do what I need and want to do to keep climbing through life without feeling sorry for myself . In short, I will have some dignity and a realistically honest “housekeeping” quality about myself, win, lose, or draw in the short and long run. Are you reading that? That means wins and losses don’t matter, that’s how I play my hand in life!
To finish, I would like to add a totally personal note, not just as a post script or something that I am saying, this is an intimate fact in my reality: Sometimes, I feel just simple unlucky in a bad way, and that good has happened to me. I say the word “feel” like this, and not the words “I’m just unlucky” because we choose how we feel, and we either create opportunities for ourselves or take them away. What we are in a being, doing and making sense is the most important thing, the rest is disposable. Especially past realities, because now is cold, hard here, now reality, and the future is just a note of promise to us that hasn’t happened yet. So I can honestly say start this minute, this second here and now to turn reality in your favor, no matter how you want it. feel, because reality is not as bad as your feelings might make you seem. Take responsibility and live better from now on, there is no other place to start.